Unhappy with my Mum

Today is a cloudy day and also a moody day for me!

Past few days I've been in loggerheads with my mum. This morning, my dad called and she refused to pick up the phone and I really got no idea what she is thinking. She doesnt want my dad to know that she is staying with me. Sigh! As if anyone would ever believe that she is not staying here. I'm upset not because she doesnt pick up the phone. It's because she raised her voice at me when my house phone rang. She shouted, dun tell him I'm here. In my mind, I thought why is she so fierce with me but not with my brother?

姐姐 heard and she commented, why 你们骂来骂去? I paused and I told her, mummy not scolding 婆婆. Mummy always treat her nicely but she always think that I'm trying to harm her. Deep within me, I'm really sad. I ask myself, will my own dd treat me like this next time.

Later in the afternoon, my younger brother called and she actually picks up his call. I really dun understand her despite now that I'm a mother. Over these years, despite of all the nonsence and all the hurts that my brother caused her. She is still there for him. It's not that I'm jealous about it. It's just that I feel that she is spoiling him to the bones. Sigh! Dun wan to dig out the past grievances. Dun like to think or even breathe over it!

Frankly both my mum and I are strong-headed creatures. Guess the inheritance is from her. I'm really worried that my 妹妹 will behave the same because her character is also the hot type. Some of my friends commented that character can be moulded which I have little confidence with that area. If I have a choice when I grow old one day, I will not live with my kids. When kids are mature enough, they will have their own set of thinking. It would be either that we change ourselves to adapt or we will be living in conflict with them.

I do not ask for anything from them. They dun have to pay for our living as long as they can be self-sufficient and they have all the good values as a person.

My 1st Maid of the new employment year works 1 mth

18 July! I ask my Indo maid this evening. When you came to me huh? Then she says, "Mum, I reach sg on 17 June and I work for you since 18 June. I think my question seems quite blunt to her, maybe. I don't give a damn really. Frankly I tried to treat all of them equally at least what I think a person or a person you live with should deserve fairly. But everytime I recalled how my previous totalling of 6 maids think that I am not a good employer; I'm upset. Sometimes we just have to admit that this is part of life! People throughout their life will constantly at different stage and time compare people between, things between things, boss between boss, colleagues between collegues.

I always told my maids that there is no point that they compare employers because they can never be the same. I will give them the best within my means.

So far this one still has good attitude. She opologises when she does something wrong, she knows what to do at the right time. Through the small little areas that I observed her so far, she is considered the best of the all that I had. I always thought that I am a fussy employer whom is picky is petty. After this one, I realised that I wasn't one at all. Everybody has their expectations and requirements. I only wanted one with a kind heart and good attitude. All the previous are all filipinos and they are really high esteem and badly attitude people. Sigh! Dun wan to waste time pondering over the unhappy and unmemorable issues.

I really keep my fingers crossed about this maid whom can cook and kind heart til this moment at least.