Amelia Sit up from crawling-New Milestone

Finally finally, my little lazy bum bum is sitting from her crawling position. She is beri different from Amanda. Her development is much slower and til today I still think that she is a young baby despite that she is reaching 1 years soon. Now at 10 mths+, I'm still very worried when she is sitting on her own because she would fall back.

(1) I'm trying (2)Almost

(3) She is crawling fast and there she goes, SIT UP!

Grandma's Birthday at Chinese Restaurant

Wow today we can eat a sumptuous meal! We supposed to meet at 6.30pm. As usual with the little delays here and there, we were slightly late.

Sigh! My 2ND Auntie's family was worse. They were never early and they were late! Late! Late! As per expected! We started the dinner about 7.30pm. My dear lia lia is kicking a fuss, the helper has to carry her outside even before the dinner even begin! She only slept deeply at 7.40pm and was awake about 20Min's after. Well its good to catch a wink sometimes!

Grandma still look energetic and love posing even after so many years. Altogether we celebrated her 78th Birthday! The cake don't look very nice but it is delicious. At the end, it seems that the happiest is still Amanda because she sang the loudest of all!

Amanda is excited over National Day!

She says Mummy, mummy, Singapore is 42 years old leh!

I ask her who told you? She says Ms Yee loh. She was really excited and brought home a goodie bag and a flag.

Frankly something that I'm really displeased about her this school is that they are not so flexible and creative. Most of the children in many schools celebrating National Day should be wearing White and Red to make the kids feel the atmosphere and mood for this day. The only thing the teacher commented about why not the exclusion? She merely mentioned, Oh we cannot recognise the kids! I really dun understand what does she mean by that!

The only thing that makes my this year national day really good and different is that Amanda can read numbers and she actually knew the age of her home country!

Hmm Mummy is so proud of her!

Amelia meets her first playmate, Isabelle

There was once that I brought the 2 girls to the Pd at Bukit timah. Think it is fate that I happened to meet an old neighbour from West Coast.

We exhanged no. and we meet up at Pizza hut for lunch.

Along the journey on the train, Amelia fell asleep and she only took a short nap after 40mins.

Amelia is very happy meeting her little friend for once after awaking from her short nap. She was swinging her legs with joy when I put her to sit on a high chair besides her little friend.

She didnt take another wink after. I decided to leave the place shortly after about 3.30pm. Reached home so that Amelia can take another nap. Frankly she was too young to play with her new playmate. Anyway her playmate slept shortly after lunch. So the two of them didn't get to play.

I will try to arrange for something else when she is really to socialise....

Amanda at Imm Playground

Nothing much to do today.
Decided to bring Amanda to meet Zann at the playground.

Something which I'm really happy about because Amanda is really sporting unlike Zann. Maybe she really love water unlike zann. The moment we change her with her swim wear, she just dashed to the play area. But when she saw that Zann wasn't keen and fearful to join the water play. Oh! The mood was spoilt and there goes the day.... Well well well..... I can only say that my girl is brave and she is fearless.

Bottle Tree Park

It was a sunny and cool day today! Me and my last minute decision, we decided to head to the Bottle Tree Park to catch fishes. Heard from my friend, Kylene that it was a fun place for the kids. Sigh because of that, we decided to skip one lesson of Amanda's ballet. Luckily she didn't ask why she doesn't have ballet today otherwise I have to tell a lie that there is no class today. Phew!

We packed sandwiches, claypot rice, fruits and drinks there. Planned to meet Cheryl and her family at about 12.30pm. As usual this woman is always not on time. They met us downstairs our home at 1.20pm. We set off together and reach there about 1.50pm. Along the journey, Cheryl's son Zavier fell asleep in his car seat. 妹妹's eyelids looked heavy yet she didn't fall asleep at all. Maybe she sensed her 姐姐's excitement in the car. The moment we reached there, 姐姐 shouted. Where is the pond? Where are the fishes? Kaka was more excited. She commented that the environment looked like her kampong.

The moment we reached there, I brought 姐姐 to buy the equipment for the fishes. I paid $10.00 for a unlimited time. The boss gave us a fishing net, a mini plastic tank and the fish food to collect later. Frankly I also feel abit reluctant to go into water. But I'm the mummy so must be sporting. I held Amanda and she sticked very close by my side. She doesn't want to go into water. I have to carry her and put her into the pond. She was abit fearful, kept standing on the rocks. Hahaha. 妹妹 can't fish so she was only enjoy kicking the water in the pond. After a short while of kicking, I asked Su to put her to sleep.

I was quite lousy. Tried fishing and at the end of the day, managed to catch 2 miserable fishes. Amanda managed to fish 2 too. Cheryl and Kaka managed to catch more. Zavier woke up about 3.30pm to join in the fun. He is very intelligent. Instead of fishing in the large pond, he tried to fish in Amanda's and his tank. He caught one in his net from his own little tank.

妹妹 slept after 2.30pm and she woke up before 4.00pm. She was really tired and that was really a short nap. We played for a while after she is awake. Left the place about 5pm.

It was a long ride before we settle for dinner and it was at Old Airport Rd. It was renovated and I really swear that I will not go there anymore. It was terribly jammed.

We headed for Suntec after and it was nearly 8pm then. Sigh! When is the FOX's sales gonna end? I spent another $88.00 and that actually eats into the budget for the month. I can only comfort myself that it was a good buy because it was 50% and those are all the basics tops that I'm buying for the girls.

What a tired, tired DAY! But we really had a fruitful trip today!

Budget! Budget! & Daily Time Allocation

I have finally worked out the Monthly budget & daily schedule for the current situation. Luck really sucks. After the new month of budgeting, I burnt a large hole in my pocket. Paid for GP's consultation with 姐姐 about $120 last everning. Gee! Paid $62 to the F&P guy for the faulty refrigerator. Thank God no need to change spare parts but still pay for his service to blow dry the display module. Sigh! Sometimes the harder you look into a issue, the worse the situation it becomes. But I really can't leave the issue to rot. Still got to measure the importance vs. the losses. This month's budget is really cut bcos of all these unwanted expenses. The silly GP commented that my sinus is really severe and needs anti bacterial to cure the reoccurence. There i spend about $80.00. I see how good is the medicine then.

I felt so gulity not having spent quality time as a SAHM. I did up an time allocation list for the girls and myself. Orgh! Sounds so balanced. Wait til I really work on it there and then! Cheer me on Man!

Daily Schedule Allocation:

Time for 姐姐

Worksheets- 20mins

Reading- 15mins

Free Play- 15mins

Structured work-20mins

PC- 10mins

Outdoor play- 20mins

Time for 妹妹

Massage or Yoga- 15mins

Flashcard- 10mins

PC- 5 mins

Free Play-10mins

Reading- 20mins

Outdoor play-20mins

I'm keeping my fingers crossed about this!

Amelia was under maid's care last nite

Couldn't let go fully despite the misery of waking up to pick Amelia's pacifier every nite. The freqency really kills every cells in you. I really dunno if this is what people meant by saying, 是你的命! When she was sleeping with us every nite, she will wakes up every hour after 2 am and starts to whine. Frankly, being her mum I really feel lousy because I got no idea why is she crying. Some days she could be passing gas and gets irritatable, some days I dunno why is she so grumpy. Even with my cruddle and rocking, she can still cry and whine! Is it me? or is it the house or the room? Until today, I don't have the keys to her cries and whining.God are you there? I'm breaking down. Is it because she sense and feel my impatience and frustrations?

I fixed the baby monitor in the helper's room so that I can hear妹妹's cryings. Do you know, Gracious! She really didn't really cry and even if its that, it wasn't long and no issue of unsettlement. WHY? WHY? WHY? Is there anything that I did wrong and now the kids are here to make my life really difficult? If you really know what happened to them then trying to mend it the right way that will not put me into this frustration.

Since the day of her birth til today, my prayers still seemed unanswered! I'm very upset and wondered if there is anything I could really do to atone for all these. I remembered my friend, Pris did mentioned before that we are already very lucky and blessed to have a normal baby than the less fortunate. This makes me thankful for this fact.

Meimei is 10mths today

This morning, Daddy and I was at the breakfast table before Jiejie wakes up. I was so upset with meimei because she was crying the whole of last night. Couldnt even settle down to watch the HG drama that I'm racing for. Sigh! Is it the fengshui of the house? Or she is really unwell bcos of the teething or her blocked nose!

I talked to Meimei. Wat happen to u? Y aren't u sleeping thru the nite? Do you know that Papa & Mummy cant sleep bcos of you in the night. She actually pretend to look away and look at Papa when I reprimand her. When daddy talks to her, she looks at me pretending likewise. This girl is really cheeky. When both of us raise our volume at her, she soured up and starts to whimper. She seems like a monster. She can awakes every 15Min's the moment her pacifier drops. Shouldn't have introduced the dummy in the first place, i thought. If weren't for the pacifier, I wouldn't have come this far. Nobody has any idea what I have gone through during Meimei younger days. I do not have anybody to help me with housework, baby care and every breathe of air in this house. I was all alone after the 10th day of Meimei's birth. My so called third helper left me after 5 days of work. She is a lunatic, dun wan to talk about her. My luck really sucks when FDW is concerned. After 1 week of search, managed to find No.4 to work; a transfer FDW. Didn't worked out after 2 moths plus. After 3 moths of struggle w/o help. I finally realised that nobody is a super woman. Neither can I or God!

The pacifier was introduced for a very good reason. That is sticking it into Meimei mouth and sandwiched her with the secure bolster to sleep w/o any any form of comfort. No cuddle, no rocking! Only kisses on the cheeks and forehead. Meimei was then only 5 mths plus. I can still remembered that I was helpless. Raced down to bring Da to take school bus in the morning while leaving Meimei at home and many occasions leaving Meimei to sleep alone when Da comes home from school. I dont have a choice. There wasnt another soul at home helping. Juggle between housework and kids. I worked til about 1 am everyday. I ask myself, why? why? why? why my kids are so tough?? I really dun have a choice! Thank God that they are still healthy and happy.

I pray and pray one day that she can settle down and sleep through the night. No more non sense. I really hate the feeling that things are not under control.

Wed!

Daddy is sick. Came home early to take a nap about 5pm. Meimei is getting cranky today. Didnt really nap as long as past days. Maybe the flu medicine is not getting efffective already. While Su put meimei to sleep about 5pm. I told Jiejie to play on the PC.
http://www.starfall.com/

I taught her to play on the phonics EN... She played once and she knew how to match HEN,MEN,PEN.... Think I really need to think about how to teach her in a way appealing to her character. When I click on the page that I ask her to try to play. She is angry and doesnt want to listen even. Sigh! How to teach her like this?? Initially I wanted to go for the Phonics adult workshop. I think I shouldnt waste time. This girl doesnt want to be taught in an orderly manner. At least now that she is older, she still has her own initiative to grab a piece of paper to write her own name, her sister's and also A to Z. The alp is quite hard to make up becuase she couldnt really write A to Z just yet. I'm already very happy with her bcos she is hardly 4.5years.

This really pushes me to find out more materials to teach her in a way appealing to her. I really cannot be a perfect or super mum. The time I have for Jiejie, I cannot balance up my time for Meimei. Maybe I really need to write a daily schedule so that I can be fair with my 2 girls. This is the reason why I quit my job for.

Gave Meimei some ice-cream to try. Hmm the minty type. You should see her expression, so funny!

After dinner, Amanda throws tantrums. She wanted something which I dont wan to give her. She kicked the things around. I really got no idea where did she learn this from! I threaten her that if she tries again, I will put a chair for her to sit outside. She is quite fearful! She stopped after. Parenting is really tough! It is a long learning process!

Amanda feeds Amelia

I was busy helping Su to do some washing. She cleans up the room so that meimei can sleep later in the room. The problem about this helper is that she can be quite disorganised.

While I was helping her to wash up, I taught Jiejie to feed Meimei the canned banana porridge for breakfast. This meimei seems to know that jiejie can be bullied. Grabs the spoon and bowl from her jiejie. At the end of it, it seems that her hair and her face eating the food rather than her mouth. Hahhaha!

I can only told Jiejie, good job Dada! She says, I dun wan to feed meimei, she grabs my spoon!

Hovan's Birthday party

Yesterday Sat night, it was Joanne & Xiaoyi's son 2nd birthday. Time really flies. Hovan is two now. We have to travel all the way from Pasir Ris which takes is a total journey of to and fro about 1hr plus.

There was a large crowd then. Many kids as usual. The thing that I am glad about is that Amanda enjoyed herself. Meimei didn't cry seeing crowd. Hopefully she can behave the same way even when she grows older.

I brought my helper, Su along. Overall she is really a good helper. Despite that her housework is not very clean, she loves the kids and can be trusted for some small issues. I just hope that this trust can last throughout the 2 years contract. It is no easy living with a stranger and trusting her. It really takes time. Wish me luck!

Mummy went to SIL home

Sigh! Mummy been here for 1 mth. Numerous conflicts happened but afterall she is still my mum. What can I do? No point getting upset over such issues. The problem with me is that I'm really a forgetful person whom will forget the slightest issue over time. I guess this blog has to stay with me to keep my memories awake.

Btw she has to come back by next week anyway because her PC course gonna start on 10 Aug. Hopefully there will not be another roar then.

Thunder! Lightning! Thunder!

Saw Amanda up the bus this morning. The moment I part with her, it starts to drizzle, thunder roared. I was so paronoid! Will Amanda be scared?? If its not the class photo-taking, I will not let her go school lah. Siao right? I'm a protective mum! Worried and think about the slightest issue about the kids.
I remembered vividly when she started school about 2 years ago, Jan 2005. She was really excited. She grined from ear to ear after wearing her uniform.

She was really brave. When I sent her then, she was only 34 mths.I thought that she will create a scene. For all I know, she sat in the assembly area quietly. In fact, she joined Calvary Pandan only on the 2nd day after the new school term starts. She looks nervous actually.

After her assembly they have lunch together and she was trying to eat herself. I'm really proud of her.

After the 3 hours with her in school, we went home together. She was happy. We went to school together the next day, Friday. Her excitement continues for the week and there wasn't any sign of separation anxiety.

After the weekend, her new school days officially started. No parents are allowed in the school. I was so worried, paranoid that she may cry for me. I hid at the corner outside the school gate to peek her eating. My worries are all in vain, she didn't cry for Mummy at all. Not at all. She is really my brave girl!

Her principal was very firm because she didn't want the kids to run to the gate to search for their parents. I understood her concerns but just a little pissed that she didn't look into the parents' anxiety and worries.

Time really flies and Amanda has already attended for about 2 and half years of school! Hope that when she comes home later the rain will stop!

Songs of the Sea

Got 2 tickets from the Maybank promotion for the Young Starz savings account.

Haven't even got time to open 妹妹's account until these recent months. The tickets were so called given due to the $500 deposit and the amount has to be locked for a minimum of 6mths. There is really no free lunch is this world.

Anyway, the purpose is for the Song of the sea at Sentosa. We headed to the iternary after dinner nearby home. Roasted duck rice. We reached sentosa about 6pm. After we picked up the free tickets from the Maybank counter. We queued for more tickets because all the women in the house went. Great grandma, grandma, grandaunt, Kaka, myself and the 2 girls and not forgeting the only man, Daddy! The tickets are selling fast like hotcakes. About 6.40pm, the shows for 8.45pm is also snapped up. Frankly I really got no idea what is the show about.

The StoryLi, a young man gifted with a charming voice, is singing by the sea with his friends when he is stunned by the sudden vision of a beautiful sleeping girl, Princess Ami. Guided by a group of mischievous Sea Creatures, Li learns that she’s under the spell of an enchanted village...

(See the show for yourself)

Oh! 妹妹 is so tired. She slept in the car on the way home. What a tired day!

Dh quite sweet though!

Maybe its the past rainy days that drains my blue feelings about the happenings. Well by nature I'm really an emotional creature and most of the times get too carried away. With this blog, more emotions is gonna overwhelm my blog readers.

There is one lady whom I know through blog which i think is so so true. She mentioned that time will pass and our kids and family will appreciate the memories through our trueful blog.

Who cares if someone is reading, I thought. Anyway this is an argument that pple can be fighting their breathe about but truely, who cares?? We have been living in this society and this world with too many cares. Cares about who is doing wat, cares abt who is feeling whatever! Sigh.... Another Nag thread!

Yah the main subject is about DH rite? He knew that my temperaments were exactly like the past days weather. About 3pm when Amanda is home, he sms me if I want to go Jalan jalan. At the back of my mind, I feel the sweet subtlness of his caring intentions. I immediately changed and left with Amanda. Gave the excuse of paying my bills to run out of the sight of my mother. Amelia is sleeping and I quickly took chance to leave.

Dh came and drove us to Jurong point. Had crave for Coffee bean's Ultimate and decided to buy one for takeaway. Amanda couldn't rest; she wanted cake and at the end; I gave in bcos I remembered that she hasn't taken her tea break milk. At the end, spend about $10.00 on UN-nutritional stuff. Sigh.

Window shopping is quite purposeless though. Went into Kiddypalace and Amanda saw a pair of "Heellity" shoes. My god, this girl has really grown up. She plead me into buying it and at the end of the day, I paid $19.90 for it which initially the cashier charges me $24.90. I insisted that it was $19.90 and after the cashier checked and scanned the tag; I landed bringing the wrong size home. God! Amanda wanted Size 28 and the lady gave me 39. Guess that size is even bigger than my feet. Sigh! Got to go change it tomorrow again then.

I really cant really accept that Amanda is a big girl now and really like a big girl thing! Remember when I was younger, I also wanted vain things like carrying bags and having the clog clog shoe. Pray that she wont miss her step with this pair of cloggie! Sometimes when they are younger, you wish they can grow up and run faster than you. Now that she is older you hope that she can a little baby under your control!

A Lazing Day

Thursday!

Cant figure out why when you stay home, time seems to fly super fast. When I work, I could feel the min and seconds of the days.

My mood didnt really improve slightly. I can still feel the yesterday's frustration down my throat. There was a minor hiccup last night. My dh, my mum and I were watching TV programme together at about 10.30pm. I suddenly thought of going for KTV session one of these days. Then I ask my mum if she can take care of the girls for 2-3 hrs while we go at night. She raised the comment, aiyah, your dd so sticky and refused anybody! I was so upset, so I told her off. Yah you always say that just because you dont have the confidence to look after or pacify her. I dont understand why she can comment on that when she knew that since day one DD No.1 has been under my full care since she was 2years. Naturally she shld stick closely to me as Im her mummy right? If she doesnt then I am the problematic mum. You only love your grandsons not your granddaughters, I commented. She was beri mad at me. There was a complete silence then. Dh broke into commotion that his DVD couldnt play in English. There wasnt any other comment with that. My mum went into her own room. I was really hurt. Why is it that she doesnt bother about what I think. She only cares about my brother and his sons. SIgh! These few days are really gloomy!

This morning, 妹妹 came into the studyroom while I was busy clearing emails. She is really a curisito! She grabs everything she can! She loves the box of magazines; she pulls the mini box down and sees the magazines fall. She was amused by that sight. She smiles at me when I shouted, NO! NO! meimei. They are really in the curious stage. 姐姐's development milestones is really faint in my mind. I really pray that nothing happens to this blog because we are really blessed to have such improved technology for that. Hmm, then I can keep on posting all 喜,怒,哀,乐 of my life.

姐姐 comes back from home and guess what she finishes her milk and I told her to read her own books while I do some blog postings and she really did. Oh! She cant stand the boredom liao and she needs my accompany now.

Unhappy with my Mum

Today is a cloudy day and also a moody day for me!

Past few days I've been in loggerheads with my mum. This morning, my dad called and she refused to pick up the phone and I really got no idea what she is thinking. She doesnt want my dad to know that she is staying with me. Sigh! As if anyone would ever believe that she is not staying here. I'm upset not because she doesnt pick up the phone. It's because she raised her voice at me when my house phone rang. She shouted, dun tell him I'm here. In my mind, I thought why is she so fierce with me but not with my brother?

姐姐 heard and she commented, why 你们骂来骂去? I paused and I told her, mummy not scolding 婆婆. Mummy always treat her nicely but she always think that I'm trying to harm her. Deep within me, I'm really sad. I ask myself, will my own dd treat me like this next time.

Later in the afternoon, my younger brother called and she actually picks up his call. I really dun understand her despite now that I'm a mother. Over these years, despite of all the nonsence and all the hurts that my brother caused her. She is still there for him. It's not that I'm jealous about it. It's just that I feel that she is spoiling him to the bones. Sigh! Dun wan to dig out the past grievances. Dun like to think or even breathe over it!

Frankly both my mum and I are strong-headed creatures. Guess the inheritance is from her. I'm really worried that my 妹妹 will behave the same because her character is also the hot type. Some of my friends commented that character can be moulded which I have little confidence with that area. If I have a choice when I grow old one day, I will not live with my kids. When kids are mature enough, they will have their own set of thinking. It would be either that we change ourselves to adapt or we will be living in conflict with them.

I do not ask for anything from them. They dun have to pay for our living as long as they can be self-sufficient and they have all the good values as a person.

My 1st Maid of the new employment year works 1 mth

18 July! I ask my Indo maid this evening. When you came to me huh? Then she says, "Mum, I reach sg on 17 June and I work for you since 18 June. I think my question seems quite blunt to her, maybe. I don't give a damn really. Frankly I tried to treat all of them equally at least what I think a person or a person you live with should deserve fairly. But everytime I recalled how my previous totalling of 6 maids think that I am not a good employer; I'm upset. Sometimes we just have to admit that this is part of life! People throughout their life will constantly at different stage and time compare people between, things between things, boss between boss, colleagues between collegues.

I always told my maids that there is no point that they compare employers because they can never be the same. I will give them the best within my means.

So far this one still has good attitude. She opologises when she does something wrong, she knows what to do at the right time. Through the small little areas that I observed her so far, she is considered the best of the all that I had. I always thought that I am a fussy employer whom is picky is petty. After this one, I realised that I wasn't one at all. Everybody has their expectations and requirements. I only wanted one with a kind heart and good attitude. All the previous are all filipinos and they are really high esteem and badly attitude people. Sigh! Dun wan to waste time pondering over the unhappy and unmemorable issues.

I really keep my fingers crossed about this maid whom can cook and kind heart til this moment at least.

Jacky Cheung World Tour 2007

Phew! I'm still holding my breathe for Jacky Cheung last night. It was the 3rd night and also the last night of Jacky Cheung stop in Singapore. Couldn't get over the whole concert and in my mind; I'm still humming the songs that he sang. Frankly I'm not a die-hard fan of Jacky but I love his songs since I was much younger. This is the 3rd time that I attended musical concerts like this.

http://www.jackycheungworldtour.com/zh-cn/index.html
Jacky is 46years old and he has been singing for the past 23 years. He sang and danced for 3 of his songs in a row. Man! He is still energetic and full of vigour!

Besides that he actually incorporated some of his musical drama stages into the concert. Fantastic! Remarkable! Incredible! Worth the money! I think I will be into this fever for a while again! Got some breakthroughs after the concert! It is not what you achieve in this life that matters! It is what you do that you really like and live the life the fullest and never live to regret later! Jacky actually love what he is doing! Despite the money that he will make from this world tour, he is still passionate about his singing & dancing! The concert starts from 8.20pm and didn't end until nearly 12 midnite. More than 3/4 of the full audience did not leave until 12 midnite. At last, everyone finally got enough of Jacky which initially supposed to end about 11pm.

Well I should thank Dh's friend who gave us the free tickets to watch. It really feels good to have some private time with Dh without the kids. 3 cheers for Dear Hubby!! Yippe!