Budget! Budget! & Daily Time Allocation

I have finally worked out the Monthly budget & daily schedule for the current situation. Luck really sucks. After the new month of budgeting, I burnt a large hole in my pocket. Paid for GP's consultation with 姐姐 about $120 last everning. Gee! Paid $62 to the F&P guy for the faulty refrigerator. Thank God no need to change spare parts but still pay for his service to blow dry the display module. Sigh! Sometimes the harder you look into a issue, the worse the situation it becomes. But I really can't leave the issue to rot. Still got to measure the importance vs. the losses. This month's budget is really cut bcos of all these unwanted expenses. The silly GP commented that my sinus is really severe and needs anti bacterial to cure the reoccurence. There i spend about $80.00. I see how good is the medicine then.

I felt so gulity not having spent quality time as a SAHM. I did up an time allocation list for the girls and myself. Orgh! Sounds so balanced. Wait til I really work on it there and then! Cheer me on Man!

Daily Schedule Allocation:

Time for 姐姐

Worksheets- 20mins

Reading- 15mins

Free Play- 15mins

Structured work-20mins

PC- 10mins

Outdoor play- 20mins

Time for 妹妹

Massage or Yoga- 15mins

Flashcard- 10mins

PC- 5 mins

Free Play-10mins

Reading- 20mins

Outdoor play-20mins

I'm keeping my fingers crossed about this!

Amelia was under maid's care last nite

Couldn't let go fully despite the misery of waking up to pick Amelia's pacifier every nite. The freqency really kills every cells in you. I really dunno if this is what people meant by saying, 是你的命! When she was sleeping with us every nite, she will wakes up every hour after 2 am and starts to whine. Frankly, being her mum I really feel lousy because I got no idea why is she crying. Some days she could be passing gas and gets irritatable, some days I dunno why is she so grumpy. Even with my cruddle and rocking, she can still cry and whine! Is it me? or is it the house or the room? Until today, I don't have the keys to her cries and whining.God are you there? I'm breaking down. Is it because she sense and feel my impatience and frustrations?

I fixed the baby monitor in the helper's room so that I can hear妹妹's cryings. Do you know, Gracious! She really didn't really cry and even if its that, it wasn't long and no issue of unsettlement. WHY? WHY? WHY? Is there anything that I did wrong and now the kids are here to make my life really difficult? If you really know what happened to them then trying to mend it the right way that will not put me into this frustration.

Since the day of her birth til today, my prayers still seemed unanswered! I'm very upset and wondered if there is anything I could really do to atone for all these. I remembered my friend, Pris did mentioned before that we are already very lucky and blessed to have a normal baby than the less fortunate. This makes me thankful for this fact.